Teaching Series

I Don’t Want To Live Anymore – You Are Not Alone

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I have noticed that I have a huge majority of teenage girls and boys who are following my ministry, and one of the most disturbing things to me is the amount of them who are crying out for help…and I don’t really know what to do, but to do this series in hopes that they will know that someone is listening…and it goes beyond me.  God IS listening, and the last thing He wants is for you to take your life…He didn’t give us life for us to take it…it’s not up to us to decide when it ends…and when we do…then we’re not only hurting those who we leave behind…we hurt those who God intended for us to reach.

This series may be one of the most personal I’ve done in a while, but I think that some times it’s important to pull back the curtain…and be vulnerable to allow my readers to know that this is a subject that we need to really be aware of because satan is stealing our children at an alarming rate…and it doesn’t matter if they’re saved or not…many children for some reason think the only way out is suicide or cutting or whatever else they do these days to escape.

The days of drugs and alcohol and cigarettes being the major concern are over…the main concern today is that our children are buying the devil’s lie that their lives are meaningless…and so I don’t know what I’m going to be able to do with this series…I don’t know who or how many people I’m going to reach…but standing by and doing nothing is no longer an option…and before you say that I don’t understand…I do.  I understand more than you know…because for many…many years I listened to satan’s lie myself…so yes…I do understand…because I have been there.

Today’s Message: “You Are Not Alone

As I mentioned in the introduction, this is a subject that I can relate to, and part of the reason is because not long ago I had begun listening to the devil’s lies about my own life.  I know how the devil works, and I know that the first thing that the devil is trying to get you to believe that no one cares and that no one would miss you if you were gone.  I know this because I’ve had the devil tell me this very thing, and the truth is…I almost let him win.

There was a period of time between October 31, 2010 and November 15, 2010 where I found myself in the midst of a major internal battle…one that I hadn’t waged in my mind for many years.  I had reached a breaking point in my life, and satan knew it…and he wanted to make sure that I didn’t survive it…and to be completely honest…I almost didn’t.

I moved to Arkansas in February of 2010 following a three-year marriage where I wound up having an affair in order to get out of the relationship.  I fell deeply in love with the woman who I had the affair with, and when I came to find out that she didn’t feel the same…I was devastated…and the truth is that was not the first time I really began to listen to the devil’s lies about my life were long, long before 2010.

I can remember probably back when I was probably thirteen years old when began praying that God would take me home.  I had been through a childhood that I wouldn’t wish on anyone.  I was physically, mentally, and emotionally abused as a child…and it continued right up until I left home for the Marine Corps.  So, I think I was probably in the 12 to 14-year-old range when I began asking God to take me home.

I may not actually get into the series today, but I feel like it’s important to just write this.  I feel like there are so many that need to hear my story today…so I am just going to run with this, and see what the Holy Ghost wants to do with this message.  I know this is a very difficult topic to talk about, but I think it’s necessary to get into because I am alarmed by the number of teenagers that are on Twitter just crying out for help.

Believe it or not, friends… I really can  identify with every one of those girls and boys who I read about on Twitter wanting to die because when I was their age I did too…and it didn’t stop when I was their age.  It followed me throughout my life.  To be even more honest and transparent…when I was in my mid twenty’s I attempted to take my life by taking prescription medication that had clear warning labels about not taking them with alcohol.  I thought about jumping off the bridge over the Kenosha Harbor a few times…I thought thousands of times about ending my life because I bought the thought that I was alone.  I bought the lie the devil was selling me that no one would care or miss me if I was gone…after all…I wasn’t doing anything of worth anyways.

So, I understand what these kids are going through because I have been through it right up until I was 37 years old…I am 39 now…so I do understand…and that’s why I can write this message and series and truly say that I understand…and that you who feel this way are not alone.

Do you sometimes feel all alone? Do you ever wonder if anyone out there cares about what you’re going through?

The worst question that comes our way when we are accessing our lives is the one that the devil loves to get us thinking about…and that question is “will anyone miss me when I’m gone?”  Yeah, I know what it’s like to ask yourself that question…and I also know what it’s like to begin to go down the list of people in your life…and as you think about them you cross them off the list of people who would easily get on with their lives without you.  In fact, you even convince yourself that you haven’t ever really been visible to them.  Not only wouldn’t they miss you if you were gone, but they hardly notice your existence now…that’s what the devil does to you.  I know…I’ve been there.  I’ve been there when I came to the conclusion that out of all the people I didn’t want to hurt…God continually kept my mom’s face before me.  I couldn’t ever convince myself that my mom would be okay without me…and many a time that thought was the thought that stopped me in my tracks.

I know what it feels like to feel completely alone and like you are already just merely existing…so you’re not really alive anyways.  I know what that feels like to feel like you’re invisible, friends.  I’m not going to hold anything back in this message because I think it’s important not to.  So, if this is a hard message to read…good.  It should be.  We shouldn’t ever feel good about reading that young people are thinking of killing themselves, they cut themselves to dull the pain of life, or have already attempted suicide.

Let me give you some numbers…

    1. The CDC reports that 60 percent of high school students claim that they have though about committing suicide, and around nine percent of them say that they have tried killing themselves at least once.
    2. According to the National Conference of State Legislatures (NCSL):
    3. 19.3 percent of high school students have seriously considered killing themselves.
    4. 14.5 percent of high school students made actual plans for committing suicide,
    5. 900,000 youth planned their suicides during an episode of major depression.
  • Suicide is the fourth leading cause of death for young people between the ages of 10 and 14.
  • Teen suicide statistics show differences in the ways boys and girls handle suicide. While girls think about attempted suicide about twice as much as boys, boys are actually four times more likely than girls to actually die by killing themselves.
  • Girls who attempt suicide are more likely to try killing themselves by overdosing on pills or by cutting themselves. Cutting is a behavior that is more common among girls. Additionally, overdosing on pills is a less violent way to commit suicide. Some girls even choose pills because it allows them time to “stage” their appearance before. Some girls find it more “romantic” to die in such a way.
  • Boys are more likely to choose a method of attempted suicide that is more lethal – and quick. Boys more often use guns (60 percent of all suicides in the United States make use of a gun), jump from great heights or hang themselves.

So…what that says is out of every 10 high school students 6 of them have seriously considered suicide.  That means that 6 out of every 10 high school students have bought the lie that the devil tells them…they’re lives are meaningless…and no one cares.

Look…I know this is hard to read.  It’s hard to write.  However, I think it’s necessary.  I think this is something that needs to be addressed because when I see the amount of kids on my Twitter timeline talking about suicide, cutting, and other things related to this topic…I am convince that 6 out of 10 may be too low.  The truth is that whatever the number whether it is 6 out of 10 or more…that number is still way too high…and we need to get involved before the devil starts stealing our children at an even higher rate.

When it feels like no one else is around, know that God is always here with you–even right now in this very moment! In both your most triumphant victories and your darkest cries for help, He’s right there beside you. He’ll never leave.

The truth is when it seems like there’s no one around…there still is someone…and that someone is God.  I know that now, but there was a time I didn’t.  I now know that when it seemed like all the world would turn away from me the only One who never left me was the Faithful One Who has always been with me every step of my life…and not only was He there…but He was very aware of everything that’s happened.

When you feel like and think that no one hears your cries…He hears them.  When you feel like and think that no one sees your tears…He sees them.  God is aware of everything that’s happening in our lives, and so I want to encourage you with that…no matter what your situation…God is very aware of it…and He is right there with you.

I remember the times when it was literally just me and God.  I know what His arms feel like because I’ve had Him hold me in them.  I know what it’s like to feel His embrace, and what it’s like to have Him be the only One with you…and I also know that although it’s a lonely feeling…it’s also comforting to know that God really is there, He really does care, and that He really does love you.

I often talk about the day that changed my life is the day that I very clearly heard God speak to my heart that He loved me.  It changed my life because it was no longer something people told me, it wasn’t something I read in the Bible, it wasn’t something someone was preaching to me…it was my Heavenly Father speaking to my heart that He loved me and that I belonged to Him.  I can’t explain what that does to you, but what I can explain is that my life hasn’t been the same again.  That day literally changed everything, and it solidified to me that God was very real and that He was very much aware of me…and that I was very much valuable to Him.

I want to take a moment to speak directly to any of you who are reading this that are thinking that you’re life is worthless and meaningless. 

The first thing I want to say is that is a lie from the pit of hell.  Jesus died on the Cross to prove God’s love for you.  He did that for you, and He did that to prove your worth.  You’re valuable to God…so valuable that He gave His only begotten Son to make sure you knew it…and that every time you think about the Cross…you’re reminded that He did that for YOU.

The second thing I want to say is that there is nothing that you dying will solve.  It is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. If you succeed in taking your life…there’s no reincarnation, you don’t get to go to the light and come back…you’re instantly transformed from life to death…and you are instantly going to wake up in eternity with Jesus or eternity with satan.

The last thing I want to say goes along with the title of this message.  You are not alone.  It’s not a cliché to say that God is with you…because He is.  If you find yourself thinking that no one is there…cry out to Jesus…it’s amazing what happens some times when you just simply say “Lord, I need You.”

And now I’m going to get back to the message. – Pastor Bryan J. Kizer

You’re never alone.  God is always a simple “I need You, Lord” away.

In fact, the Bible says that we can never run too far from God or flee from His presence. No matter how many times we mess up, how many of our friends desert us, or how helpless life can seem at times, God constantly surrounds us.

I’m reminded of the prodigal son as I read this.  I’m reminded at how the father never stopped waiting for his son to come home.  I’m reminded of the joy he felt as he saw his son coming, and of the passion that he had as he ran to his son.  I think about how he rejoiced, and how God rejoices over us whenever one of us prodigals comes home to Him.

I think about how deep into the pig pen of life I was, and how I felt the same way this prodigal son in the parable did.  I can remember thinking and still think at times about how in the world God can use a life like mine for any good, and when I think that way He gently reminds me that He uses the foolish things of the world to show His greatest power.

Whenever I talk about how I used to want to die myself, and how I enjoy life now…it’s a testimony of how God kept me going.  Many times my mom’s face was the one thing He could always use to stop me.  There’s always someone that would be completely devastated by you taking your life…and the thing of it is…if you die…there’s no hope in fixing anything…death is permanent.  If you’re successful in committing suicide…it’s permanent…and the only thing it does is hurt those you leave behind.

He’s saying to you today, “I will be with you wherever you go.” He’s encouraging you, “Be strong and courageous.” He’s promising you, “I will strengthen you and help you.” You are not alone!

If you’re contemplating suicide…please don’t.  I don’t know your life, I don’t know your struggles, I don’t know your pain, but I know the One that does.  I know that He is aware of what you’re going through, and I’m begging you call out to Him…just like the father that ran to his prodigal son…He will run to you.

Instead I would like to ask you a favor.  Take a moment now to pray this to God:

God, thank You for promising to be with me no matter what I’m going through. I need Your help to be strong and courageous. Please give me the peace and comfort that only Your presence can bring. In the name of Jesus I pray, amen.

In Closing:

I know this is a very difficult thing to talk about, but as I’ve said a number of times in this message…I am concerned with the number of children that cut, that are considering suicide, and so…some times we have to talk about topics like this…because it’s important to know about them.  It’s important to know how satan is killing our children, what his lies are, and how we can help them.

In every message of this series, I am going to post the phone number to people who are equipped to deal with this sort of thing, and if you know of someone…and chances are you do…please…don’t just pass this by as just another message I’ve written…

Remember my last message about “Fellowship In Action”…we must take action, and stand in the gap for the youth in this country.  If you know someone who needs help…GET THEM HELP.  If you don’t know where to turn or how to get them help…then use phone number to help you  to help them…Amen!?!

Call and talk with someone who’s ready to listen 24/7: 1-800-273-8255 (USA only)

Log on to Church Online at http://live.lifechurch.tv and click the Live Prayer button under the video to chat and pray one-on-one with someone who cares.

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Contact me by email: christlikeministriesarkansas@yahoo.com

Thank you for joining me as we talk about this, and I am trusting that we will make an impact and help people with this series.

Blessings & Grace & Love to you.

Pastor Bryan J. Kizer

Christlike Ministries NWA

“My love be with you all in Christ Jesus.” (1 Corinthians 16:24)

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